Learning how to view my own work has been one of the biggest challenges lately. It’s so, so easy to slide into self criticism, self loathing, especially in my writing. Both my day job and my writing early in the mornings and in the evenings have been feeling like insurmountable challenges. These [...]
The speed at which the world works is off today. The speed at which I work is off. Things should be moving faster. I have no patience. I have no patience for cleaning the bathroom or eating or writing. Everything must move faster, nothing should take up any of my [...]
Remember when sleep was normal? High school, maybe, when going to bed at midnight or later and waking up at 6:30 was OK? Sure, you wanted more sleep. You slept like a goddam rock on the weekends, didn’t emerge from your bedroom until noon. But during the week those 6 hours got you through a [...]
I’m doing Pilates about two days per week and that’s it. Nothing cardiovascular, nothing aerobic. I walk 15-20 minutes per day. I’m about 10-20 pounds overweight, some might say a bit more than that. I don’t weigh what men in the 1940’s weighed at my height, that’s for certain. Someone [...]
A couple of years ago my wife and I played a lot of World of Warcraft. We’d both just turned in our Masters Theses and were looking for some major recuperation. Major recuperation turned into major addiction for her, minor addiction for me. My fascination with WoW started with the maps, [...]
In many cases (depressive bipolar being the signal case), those with the disorder tend to be dilettantes, tend not to stick to one thing or another. This probably has something to do with the staying power of confidence – or lack of. Although I’ve been feeling better lately, I don’t take it for [...]
It’s not that time passes slowly but that time passes emptily. Empty of thoughts other than the self-lacerating kind, the mind passes the time quickly, preoccupied as it is with itself.
Quick: how do other people pass their time on a Sunday afternoon? Errands, trips to the park and the movies? Are they [...]
I’m about to check out – or have already checked out, because it’s currently running – a piece of software that disconnects you from the internets for an amount of time of your choosing.
I’m an internet addict. I have an addictive personality to begin with: cigarettes being the worst. But the internet comes [...]