How do you know what’s working is working in the highest degree possible? You can’t know absolutely that the medication you’re taking for major depression or bipolar disorder is the best for you, and that drives me nuts. Whenever I’m feeling better — right now, for instance — I tend to get [...]
The shiny new gadgets — they’re always referred to as shiny — seduce in times of boredom. Not to say that all who love gadgetry are bored or boring people, but, like sports, electronics fill in life’s smaller gaps. Shopping for them as entertainment. I go to the tech section of the [...]
I’ve not been one to divulge much about my identity on this blog, fearful that people who know me and may employ me might find it. But this time I’ll give a little hint about what I’ve been going through. I used to live in Los Angeles, unmedicated and untreated. It got [...]
My medication is preventing crying jags. The move from our old neighborhood to our new one is preventing them, too. Normally, (normally meaning unmedicated and living back in the old hood — which was the norm for three years) I would be crying or going into irritable flights of hypomania, obsessing over something I or [...]
What is hypomania expressing itself? You never know you have it till it’s gone. So afraid now of loneliness, after the year or two up. Seems to be going on locust years — seven years gone now, should be coming back round again. I hope. The last one kicked me [...]