I was going through my photos on my computer when I came across this shot I took during a bike ride along the Hudson. As it came out, the waves look frozen, and I emphasized the blue of the whole image to match what I felt was its tone – immobile, overcast, with unearthly blue replacing the reds and oranges of a regular sunset.

I think I stopped at that image and stared at it for a while because it reflects what I’m feeling. Instead of a photo making me feel something, I just saw myself in it. Cold buildings, cold water, frozen in place.

I left the apartment today. Massive effort, but so worth it. I felt like everyone was staring at me and some could look inside my mind, but hey – going to have some weirdness with the good.