Desire without ability
Having nothing to say but not minding because there’s no one to say nothing to. Like I’m practicing lyrics, some kind of indie lyrics, the repetition the self-absorption. Painful as hell, this desire without ability. Funny, because I’m taking something called Abilify. I almost wrote that I was “on” something, but saying you’re on something sounds too much like a diet plan or fitness regimen.
I’m not getting used to the idea that I need these drugs for the rest of my life.